the magnetic, dark feminine

how often we give away our power to others, how easy it is to allow one thought to rattle our energy completely. it takes one thought, it takes giving that thought energy, it takes investigating that thought deeply — a choice to let a thought, one thought alone, drown you down the rabbit hole rather than float you into wonderland.

and it’s a choice, a choice to how much energy we allow to a thought that usually has no truth to it at all

every time I begin a new program, i have some of my deepest work that clearly i'm ready for (even though my mind is trying to convince me i’m not) approach at light speed.

the mind is only as powerful as we allow it to be. it’s my thoughts, it’s my thoughts that get in the way of my feeling — that which is the compass of my truth i am far more familiar

this morning in my anxious state i ran to a weights heavy gym class to try shift this thing, not quite, so then came home to go into a masculine breathwork and movement practice, still triggered by these thoughts that i’m now getting really uncomfortable in — & i don’t want to resist it but i do want to shift it.

so i go to where i really know, back to my feminine practice. i play one of my divine feminine playlists full of sexy songs and i start to feel this deep dark feminine emerging from my being. the one that subtly whispers in my ear — “you know exactly who you are, exactly what you hold, exactly how to move, so move, move your body, make love to me” — the shift. i call back my power, through my sexual power — and the shift happens. a huge release of energy, a softness restores. i’m back in my heart, in my body.

i’m home.

that dark feminine, she is so magnetic, so knowing, so confident, that everything here for her, is already hers, she’s just to stay in her power, in her confidence, in her heart through this movement. this movement right here. she’s the most powerful archetype within me, guiding me.

thank goddess for this work, thank goddess for this home in my heart.